That's it.. That simple!

I never think about the consequences

I don't!

that simple..

That's me, or actually that's

who i became.

That's y i think,

if u got very sick or had a severe pain

-that u can't bear-

u should take alot of medicines/analgesics

till u feel better/the pain stops

No matter the over dose' toxicity

No matter the side effects

No matter what will happen on the long run..

for God sake who cares about that pullshit

when he can't take his breath?!!!

and when u have insomnia..

when u spend all the day and all the night on ur bed

without any sleep..

even after taking everyones' advice

starting from drinking cup of milk,

ending with sleeping on ur back

staring on the ceiling!

There i think u should take some hypnotic.

ignoring all the good people says..

that u will not have any normal sleep latter

because what's the hell the point of

thinkin' about the future normal sleepin'

while u can't -normally- close ur eyes

for just now?!

and because the hypnotics are always in the table,

-i really dunno y-

it's okay with the anti-histaminic drugs for this purpose

They are cheep and available

and doesn't affect the CNS

only the kidney and the liver

which seems not significant that much

that's y they were kept away from the table!

and so when u want to die

u shouldn't think about the consequences..

u shouldn't have to think about anyone else..

Not about ur family..

Not about ur friends..

Not about Him...

That's it..

we should n't think about the consequences..

because the worst, biggest, most significant One,

will be fine, tiny, and insignificant at all

if it's compared with what u r feeling there..

That simple!