it's really hurts me..

It has been so hard 4 me when it's about death cases..

finding no words 2 say, is the most thing annoying me..

(as i am a real talkative one! )

so, why at this cases i can't say a word!

Instead of making the other one holds and be stronger,

I became weak..

Instead of asking them to not cry,

I got weeping..

I can't deal with goodbye when it's only a temporary farewell..

so, i can't even imagine what if it is a permanent one!

and so, my only wish became..

just to be the 1st one who go there of all the people i do love..

cause simply,

I can't -till now- acclimate with the fact of "Farewell" ..

the idea of losing someone 4ever!

Not only u won't see them, or u won't have them at ur life..

nope!

They, won't be even exist in this world anymore..

Not wiz u, not wiz anyone else..

The idea of staying when the others are leaving,

is really hurts me!

so hard to get, so hard 2 believe, and so hard 2 live with..