Due sorry, bcz of the different year

"This year is different"

I heared that words several times..

yea, i know it's different, and it's the decisive year..

which'll decide my future
i know all that i swear..

but i don't think it's only the year is different..

i think "Me" too became different..

I'm not the same..

i'm not the angel who i used to be..

and I'm sorry to all u..

coz i only begane writing this year..

so, u didn't get the chance to know old "Me" the angel one..

alot of things have been changed in my life..
i dunno how?
but it've been changed..
something is missing
i duuno what is it
but i feel it clearly
something is missing and i can't get it back

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I became neglectful in alot of people's rights
and i don't have nothing exept to be sorry 4 that

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I'm sorry God,
I'm not close to U as I used to be..
hope U forgive me, coz i didn't mean to be..

hope i get closer to u again after this "different year" finish

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I'm sorry Mom,

I know i seem so careless, and became bad girl,
i don't help u in anything..
hope u forgive me and know that's out of my control

I'll be a good girl again just wait for this "different year"

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I'm sorry my sisters,

I know sometimes we don't see each other 4 days..
i remember that i once saw u sad, and it was clearly that something is wrong with u..
but i didn't ask u what is the matter
coz i was forced to sleep coz i have alot of study the next morning
I'm really sorry that i couldn't be with u when u really needed me
hope u forgive me and know that i really Miss our talking and our great times which we spent together
I Miss to say "any new news?"

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I'm sorry my brother,

I know we don't talk alot to each other..
i don't have the time to ask u about ur news..
to discuss about the last matches and the new movies..
to talk about the cars and the new mobiles
hope u forgive me and know that i really Miss that

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I'm sorry my clz frnds, zenab and aya,

I know we don't talk together..
yea we see each other almost every day
but we don't get the chance to talk as we always have
i just hope this "different year" finish soon to get back our school days
hope u forgive me and know it's just bcz of this
"different year" not 4 nothing else

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I'm sorry gehad,

I know i don't ask about u..
and sometimes when u call i don't answer coz i have some lessons must be studied..
hope u forgive me and know that i still consider u
a special friend..
actually a brother..

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I'm sorry fares,

I know i'm not available to u
since u've traveled to the UAE, we talked just a few times for just 30 min as a maximum
hope u forgive me and don't think i forgot u coz u've traveled be sure that's out of my hands
it's just bcz of "the different year"
I really Miss our long conv. and hope we get them back soon

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I'm sorry Marwa,

I feel shame of myself when i remember u

and how i'm so bad with u

i dunno why i always remember this msg when i think about u

"sometimes life gets so busy, i couldn't even say haay, make a call, send a reply.. but it doesn't mean i forgot u, coz in my heart i keep u"

I love u and i really Miss every moment we spent together

hope u forgive me and know,

although life gets so busy

i swear in my heart

i'm keeping u

despite of "the different year"

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I'm sorry my plants,

i don't water u any more

I Miss u, and i'm sure u do..

coz u r not very good as u were..

i don't accuse any one that he doesn't give u the due care

i just know i was overdo in caring about u

hope u forgive me, and i promise when this "different year" finish i'll overdo in caring about u again

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I'm sorry my birds,

I know i wasn't feed u daily..

but i was sometimes do

now, i never feed u or even bring u the water

hope u forgive me, and i promise when this "different year" finish, i'll feed u again

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I'm sorry my yoseny (my turtle),

I know i don't spend any time with u

i don't feed u, i don't ask if u ate or not..

i don't even ask if u woke up or didn't

I really love u and I really Miss u

i swear when this "different year" finish i'll spend with u an extra time

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I'm sorry for every one needed me and i couldn't be beside him

I'm sorry for every one i forgot to put his name here

I'm sorry coz it's not only "the year is different"

it's me also

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Notes:

- I talked about only people who i feel i'm guilty in their rights..

the people who i didn't talk about them,

it doesn't mean i don't love them or i don't care but i don't feel guilt for them coz we r in contact..

- Most of people who i tlked about them here will not see or even hear about this post..

I know that, but i just wanted to say

I'm sorry