Thursday, January 18, 2007

Due sorry, bcz of the different year


"This year is different"

I heared that words several times..
yea, i know it's different, and it's the decisive year..
which'll decide my future
i know all that i swear..
but i don't think it's only the year is different..

i think "Me" too became different..
I'm not the same..

i'm not the angel who i used to be..

and I'm sorry to all u..
coz i only begane writing this year..
so, u didn't get the chance to know old "Me" the angel one..

alot of things have been changed in my life..
i dunno how?
but it've been changed..
something is missing
i duuno what is it
but i feel it clearly
something is missing and i can't get it back
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I became neglectful in alot of people's rights
and i don't have nothing exept to be sorry 4 that
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I'm sorry God,
I'm not close to U as I used to be..
hope U forgive me, coz i didn't mean to be..
hope i get closer to u again after this "different year" finish
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I'm sorry Mom,

I know i seem so careless, and became bad girl,
i don't help u in anything..
hope u forgive me and know that's out of my control
I'll be a good girl again just wait for this "different year"
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I'm sorry my sisters,
I know sometimes we don't see each other 4 days..
i remember that i once saw u sad, and it was clearly that something is wrong with u..
but i didn't ask u what is the matter
coz i was forced to sleep coz i have alot of study the next morning
I'm really sorry that i couldn't be with u when u really needed me
hope u forgive me and know that i really Miss our talking and our great times which we spent together
I Miss to say "any new news?"
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I'm sorry my brother,
I know we don't talk alot to each other..
i don't have the time to ask u about ur news..
to discuss about the last matches and the new movies..
to talk about the cars and the new mobiles
hope u forgive me and know that i really Miss that
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I'm sorry my clz frnds, zenab and aya,
I know we don't talk together..
yea we see each other almost every day
but we don't get the chance to talk as we always have
i just hope this "different year" finish soon to get back our school days
hope u forgive me and know it's just bcz of this
"different year" not 4 nothing else
__________
I'm sorry gehad,
I know i don't ask about u..
and sometimes when u call i don't answer coz i have some lessons must be studied..
hope u forgive me and know that i still consider u
a special friend..
actually a brother..
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I'm sorry fares,
I know i'm not available to u
since u've traveled to the UAE, we talked just a few times for just 30 min as a maximum
hope u forgive me and don't think i forgot u coz u've traveled be sure that's out of my hands
it's just bcz of "the different year"
I really Miss our long conv. and hope we get them back soon
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I'm sorry Marwa,
I feel shame of myself when i remember u
and how i'm so bad with u
i dunno why i always remember this msg when i think about u

"sometimes life gets so busy, i couldn't even say haay, make a call, send a reply.. but it doesn't mean i forgot u, coz in my heart i keep u"

I love u and i really Miss every moment we spent together
hope u forgive me and know,
although life gets so busy
i swear in my heart
i'm keeping u

despite of "the different year"
__________
I'm sorry my plants,
i don't water u any more
I Miss u, and i'm sure u do..
coz u r not very good as u were..
i don't accuse any one that he doesn't give u the due care

i just know i was overdo in caring about u
hope u forgive me, and i promise when this "different year" finish i'll overdo in caring about u again
__________
I'm sorry my birds,
I know i wasn't feed u daily..
but i was sometimes do
now, i never feed u or even bring u the water
hope u forgive me, and i promise when this "different year" finish, i'll feed u again
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I'm sorry my yoseny (my turtle),

I know i don't spend any time with u
i don't feed u, i don't ask if u ate or not..
i don't even ask if u woke up or didn't
I really love u and I really Miss u
i swear when this "different year" finish i'll spend with u an extra time
__________

I'm sorry for every one needed me and i couldn't be beside him
I'm sorry for every one i forgot to put his name here
I'm sorry coz it's not only "the year is different"

it's me also
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Notes:

- I talked about only people who i feel i'm guilty in their rights..
the people who i didn't talk about them,
it doesn't mean i don't love them or i don't care but i don't feel guilt for them coz we r in contact..
- Most of people who i tlked about them here will not see or even hear about this post..
I know that, but i just wanted to say

I'm sorry

22 comments:

Anonymous said...

,iam sorry mom

I know i seem so careless, and became bad girl,
i don't help u in anything..
hope u forgive me and know that's out of my control
I'll be a good girl again just wait for this "different year"
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أنا راضية زمتك

إنت عمرك مديتى إيدك فى حاجة قبل كدة
يعنى ماتتهمهاش فى السنة دى
عموماً شكراً ياستى مستغنيين عن خدماتك
زاكرى وركزى وبكرة نخلصه منك
ولو إن ساعتها هاتطلع لنا سنة مختلفة تانية
وساعتها برضو هانقول نفس الكلام

سلااااااااااااااااااااااام

Amr Ahmed said...

hi how r u?

it is nice to start your year

with being consicousness of your self
to know your faults

hping to be different

i wish u good luck

byeeeeeeeee

Anonymous said...

hii mony iam here after our mom :) plz don feel guilty of me bcoz i didn't talk wz anyone about za thing who hurt me, so if u isn't busy i was try to runaway to keep silent, i no zat isn't za way we were but zis time is soooooooo painfull and i keep it insider me, ask my mom if she have a details?? she will answer NEVER, r u see? our mom dosn't no becoz i didn't talk, i try to be a fine in fcaing of u but am still bleeding, have a shizophirinia but i still breathing. don be guilty we wait u after zis year. :)) wz our love.
ur elder sister

Anonymous said...

I know sometimes we don't see each other 4 days..
i remember that i once saw u sad, and it was clearly that something is wrong with u..
but i didn't ask u what is the matter
coz i was forced to sleep coz i have alot of study the next morning
I'm really sorry that i couldn't be with u when u really needed me
hope u forgive me and know that i really Miss our talking and our great times which we spent together
I Miss to say "any new news?"
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yea i realy miss u so much , and realy i was need to talke to u , but sure i forgive u couse i know that u wanna talke to me but no time i crying now, don`t know why? but i miss our conv. too , i miss it so much , don`t fell guilty couse yea i realy need to talke but i can`t too.
my sweet i realy love u.
your sister.

esraa said...

elpost bgad aktar mn ra23 < gamel gdan enna n3tazr lma n7s enna m2sren f 7a2 7ad, enty bgad ensana gamela w sure all of them proud of u.

Mony The Angel said...

Mom,
welcome on board :D
manty bte3rafy ted7'oly hna aho ;)
omaal eh 7waar hwa ana bafham mennek haga da ha?
mashy ya sety ana maba3melsh haga ha?
omaal alt7eena al7'orafia bt3atchy de teb2a esmaha eh lol
whatever, 7'aleeky shahda bas enek enty ally olty msta3'nieen 3an 7'damatek
mateb2eesh terga3y fe kalamek enty bas ;)

Mony The Angel said...

Amr:
thanks 3ala ur comment ya maan
hope u liked the post..
wish good luck 4 u too amr
salamz

sofinqoraso said...

البوست يجنن يا مونى
جميل أوى إنك تحسى أنك غلطانة فى حق حد
والأجمل أنك تعترفى بالغلط ده
والأجمل والأجمل انك تحاولى تصلحيه

بس على فكرة
ساعات بنوجد لنفسنا مبررات كتير
ونقول معلش اصل اليومكين دول بتحصل حاجات عجيبة
أصلها كانت سنة غريبة
وناسسين اننا أحنا اللى فينا كل العجب

بحييكى

Mony The Angel said...

My youngest sister:
ana 3arfa al7aala de.. bas sada2eeny msh hatool, hatewsaly lemar7ala kda ba3daha hatetkalemy..
trust me :)
w hope u forgive me 4 not being beside u (f)
i know u didn't talk.. but i didn't even try to make u talk, that's what make me feel guilt :(
take care of urself (fff)

Mony The Angel said...

my second sister:
u know, i dunno why i cryed too when i read ur reply :(
i love u (L)

Mony The Angel said...

esraa:
thanks alot 4 the comment..
hope u always like my posts ya gameela :)
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sofinqoraso:
a7'galtom tawado3na ya gameel :)
alpost yganen 3shaan 3agabek bas :)
w thanks 4 ur sweet words (F)

elkamhawi said...

جامد قوى الحوار ده بجد لو كل واحد فينا عمل كدة السنة اكيد هتبقى افضل بس سورى اعذرينى انا شايف ان اما يكون عندك مذاكرة ده مش سبب انك مترديش على
gehad

عموما ربنا يوفقك

Memo said...

you are sooo sweeet
i hope every one accept your sorryes
and stop feeling guilty we 3ishy hiatk elt2il gy wara
great post
best wishes

yuri said...

hi mony :d nice work really
wish u be good with all ur friends wa everything u want be done takecare

Mony The Angel said...

elkamhawy:
thanks 4 the comment
btw, fe haga lahezt en fee nas kteer mafehemoohaash..
i'm not talking about 2007 or 2006
i'm talking about alsana aldrasia..
3shan ana alsanaady fe 3 snaaawee :)
that's all :)
w about gehaad, i answer when i could ;)
hope 2 c u here again
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memo:
u r the sweet one :)
thanks 4 ur words ya gameela
ed3eely enty bas (f)
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yuri:
u r here again :)
it really pleased me to see ur comments :)

LAMIA MAHMOUD said...

اية يا بنتي كمية الاعتذارات دي بصي كل الناس اللي بتحبك بجد مش حتستنى منك اعتذار هي بس حتبقى مبسوطة وانتي مبسوطة ولما تاخدي بالك لما تغلطي ده لو غلطتي اصلا وتصلحي

ثانيا بقى حوار الملاك ده انتي بتظلمي نفسك بيه مفيش ملايكة فما تجهديش نفسك عشان تكوني ملاك خليكي بس زي ما انتي
اللي على ما اعتقد حد زي العسل وبني ادمة طيبة بتعتذر للسحلفة بتاعتها

على فكرة انا عندي انا كمان واحدة اسمها كوكي بس زي القمر عايزين نجوزها للسحلفاة بتاعتك ونبقى نسايب

الحصان الأسود said...

i am sorry to see all these sorry things in here, i am sorry to see all the sorry felings inside you, i am sorry that i was here to hear that you are that sorry,

Sorry.

elkamhawi said...

ايوة عارف يمكن اكون فهمت الموضوع من جانب تانى بس ده برضه مينفيش اللى انا قلته

وبالنسبة لجهاد ربنا يخليكو لبعض

Mony The Angel said...

lamiaa:
azayek ya gameela, thanks 3al comment :)
w about yoseeny w koky b2a, fana madeesh yoseeny le2ay had lazem a3aien kooky al awel lol
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al7osaan al eswed:
thanks alot (f)
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alkamhawy:
shaklak fahem 3'lat 7'ales lol

هيثم ابوعقرب said...

والنبي يا اختي اصور حلوه
قوي
ولنعمه
ادي دقني لو فهمت حاجه
؟؟؟

Anonymous said...

What words...

Mony The Angel said...

Dear Anonymous,
That's an extremely an old post :))
i dunno how u reached it
but anyhow, thanks 4 reminding me wiz :))