One day I'll fly away...

I follow the night

Can't stand the light

I have this picture in my mind

for me..

Happily, getting out from the window

What more could your love do for me

When will love be through with me

It have been there so long

and every day it become clearer

everyday more details are added

It's just there in a very strange way

which makes me sometimes think,

That some one has infected my mind!

That someone has incepted this thing into my head..

That falling is my cure..

and everything else doesn't matter

and everything latter will be better

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends

Maybe because in City Of Angels,

Seth hasn't died when he fall

and may be because the same fall in Inception

means that u'll wake up from the dream

u don't wanna to be at anymore

and turn back to ur life

or maybe because flying away

is my all life dream,

and this could be the only way

i'll ever have it true.

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

عم محمد و ماذا بعد 25 يناير..

عم محمد هو العسكري اللي بيقعد على باب كليتنا..

و هو هواه نفس العسكري اللي من سنتين فاتوا كان بيقف على باب المدينة..

كان كل ما يشوفني يقوللي ذات النضارة السوداء

لما كنت بقلعها كان بيوقفني..

ولما اطلعهاله او اشاورله عليها كان بيدخلني على طول

عم محمد لما اتنقل وجه الكلية عندنا،

معرفش ربط ان انا ذات النضارة السوداء ولا لأ.. لانه عمره ما قالهالي تاني

بس فضل بيعاملني معاملة خاصة برده وكل مايشوفني يقوللي ســـمــــــر

لحد ما مرة قلتله انا مش سمر على فكرة قاللي امال انتي مين؟ قلتله منة

واتحول اللقاء اليومي ل سـمــر؟ لأ انتي منة صح.. امال فين سمر؟

فارد على اسئلته وامشي..

على اخر الترم كان بطل يتلخبظ بيننا خلاص

مكانش بيقوللي غير منة..

وفي الامتحانات مكنتش بمتحن في الكلية اصلا

بس كنت بعدي من قدام صيدلة في طريقي لتجارة

كان كل يوم ينده عليا بصوته الجهوري مـــنـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــة

يفرج عليا البنات كلها

كنت طبعا بقف ارد عليه عشان يسألني ازيك و يقوللي ربنا معاكي

وبعد الامتحان لما برجع الكلية عشان الشفوي برده كان بينده عليا عشان يسألني عملت ايه

نفس الحكاية بعد الشفوي وانا مروحة

مرة اصلا اتأخرنا في الشفوي ولقيته طالع الدور الرابع و كلمني كالعادة

هو اكيييد طبعا كان طالع لسبب تاني

بس الافيه حكم انه طلع يدور عليا لما اتأخرت

الخلاصة ان عم محمد فعليا كان شابهني

اكيد البنت اللي العسكري -اللي هو تابع حرس الجامعة-

بيندهلها في الرايحة والجاية، عصفورة!

وش يعني

عشان كده اخر يوم ف امتحانتنا لما كنت مغيرة لفة الطرحة

و عم محمد معرفنيش لما عديت من قدامه

بس قعد يبصلي كأنه بيشبه عليا..

حمدت ربــنـــا..

لما الدراسة قعدت تتأجل اسبوع ورا اسبوع اتضايقت

واكتأبت لما قالولي اننا ممكن منرجعش تاني

عشان انا مسلمتش على حد من صحابي اخر يوم لاني كنت مستعجلة

مكنتش اعرف ان الاسبوعين هيبقوا ستة..

اكيد لو كنت اعرف كنت استنيت شوية وسلمت عالناس كلها

دلوقتي الدراسة خلاص هترجع بكرة

وهروح الكلية وهشوف صحابي اللي مسلمتش عليهم اخر يوم

بس الاكييد اني لما اروح الكلية بعد بكرة عم محمد هيكون مشي خلاص..

مشي راح فين ولا هيعمل ايه؟ عمري ما هعرف.. بس الاكيد اني هحاول..

سمية صاحبتي كل مانتكلم عن الظباط و هيروحوا فين

تقوللي يودوهم المرور على سبيل التريقة يعني..

بحاول اتخيل عم محمد و هو واقف في الاشارة.. بس مبعرفش!

عم محمد..

لو كنت اعرف اخر يوم امتحانات ان دي هتبقى اخر مرة اشوفك فيها،

اكيد مكنتش هسيبك تشبه عليا ولا اديك ضهري

اكيد كنت هاجي اسلم عليك..

وتأكد ان ده هيحصل لو شفتك ف يوم من الايام

حتى لو كان ده ف اشارة مرور..

Unrelated -or maybe related- thoughts.. .

How did u become my shadow, my ghost?
How did u become the one who's freakin' me out the most?

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Never say I love you if you don't really care
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart
Never say you are going to if you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie
Never say hello if you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever, then please say you'll try
Never say forever because forever makes me cry.

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Because I'm ur "reference"
and U r my "curse"

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There's this parish priest,
goes up to the Pope,
drops down on his knees,
starts weeping, asking forgiveness.
"Holy father, holy father,

what am I to do? What am I to do?
I do not believe in God anymore.
What am i to do?"
And you know what the pope said?
"Fake it."

From The Recruit movie.

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There always something missing..

every time i get close to,
it walks away from me..
I couldn't find it yet,
so, i just i stopped lookin' for.

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You're waiting for a train.
A train that will take you far away.
You know where you hope this train will take you,
but you can't be sure.
But it doesn't matter.
Because we'll be together.

from Inception movie.

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U r invading my mind again..
And it's okay wiz me
But please,
stay away from my dreams.

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The paint, butterfly girl for Rabi khan

wen it turns frm valentine's day 2 a 5arentines one :D

U've been in a bad mood all the day..

one of those days u just acting as u're lookin' 4 a fight

and after ur all tries don't work out..

and as ur mood is becoming worse..

U prefer keep silence and not talkin' 2 anyone!

Here where u wish if there're some danger sign above ur head,

2 make ppl stay away frm u

or even listen when u say u dun wanna 2 talk..

So ur perfect solution there is goin' 2 sleep

even if it's so early 2 do..

or even if u dun wanna 2 sleep at all..

it still ur only solution, so u take it.

U're there tryin' 2 sleep when u got that msg frm ur -dear- clz frnd

sayin' that u'd get a kiss if u clzd ur eye..

U just do -clz ur eyes-

2 find the next lines tellin' u there's no kiss 4 u bcz u havn't clz ur eyes 4 real!

Here's where ur mood becomes the worst

and all wt cms 2 ur mind,

but i hav -really- clzd my eyes!

Ur tears find there way 2 ur pillow,

u clz ur eyes whispering 2 ur-self

Happy 5arentine's day : )

14-2-2011

Some of my fav. "Felicity series" quotes..

The hardest part about moving forward

is not looking back.

I guess when your heart gets broken,

you sort of start to see the cracks in everything.

I've become a real believer in

not defining every single thing.

Seems like everytime you think you've figured out

what something is,

it just becomes something else.

You can't know who that person is,

the person who will become your ultimate confidant,

your soul mate, or your lover.

Sometimes bad things just happen..

no reason, no purpose.

They just occur and we're left to pick up

the pieces the best we can.

Sometimes in a relationship,

going through hell isn't so bad

if you come out of it a little stronger.

The same is true about friends.

Relationships are hard.

Do you know what I definitely believe in?

Fate..

that things happen for a reason.

Maybe getting over someone you’re in love with

isn’t impossible.

Unless, maybe you don’t actually get over it.

Maybe you just learn to live with it.

It's hard to articulate this thing that I'm so afraid of.

The future.

I mean, why should we be so afraid of the future?

It's just time... isn't it?

You made me fall for you and this is what’s not fair,

you knew it and you liked it!

The truth is I can’t be with you like this.

I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can’t.

I just can’t compromise myself like that.

I mean I’m an emotional person.

I feel things and I need to be able

to get upset and talk about how I’m feeling.

I mean that’s just…that’s who I am and I can’t change it.

I don’t want to.

And the thing is you know that,

you knew it and you still pursued me

because you want something with me,

you just aren’t strong enough to have it which…

in a way makes you a coward.

And the saddest part is that…

one day you’re gonna wake up

and you’re gonna realize what you missed

and it’s gonna be too late.

Sometimes expectations can inspire you..

but then again they can really let you down.

I just love you too much to be friends right now.

I'm not the one who is gonna get hurt,

you are.

May be it's like chemistry..

how certain elements are just attracted

to each other,

no matter what's the condition.

Just 4 record.. :D

2 days b4 Microbiology final exam
7/1/2011

From Assassins Movie..

Once upon a time,
there was this little sparrow,
who while flying south for the winter
froze solid and fell to the ground.

And then to make matters worse
the cow crapped on him,
but the manure was all warm
and it defrosted him.

So there he is,
he's warm and he's happy to be alive
and he starts to sing.
A hungry cat comes along
and he clears off the manure
and he looks at the little bird
and then he eats him.

And the moral of the story is this:
everyone who craps on you
is not necessarily your enemy,
and everyone who gets you out of crap
is not necessarily your friend,
and if you're warm and happy
wherever you are
you should just keep your big mouth shut.