Unrelated -or maybe related- thoughts.. .

How did u become my shadow, my ghost?
How did u become the one who's freakin' me out the most?

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Never say I love you if you don't really care
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart
Never say you are going to if you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie
Never say hello if you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever, then please say you'll try
Never say forever because forever makes me cry.

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Because I'm ur "reference"
and U r my "curse"

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There's this parish priest,
goes up to the Pope,
drops down on his knees,
starts weeping, asking forgiveness.
"Holy father, holy father,

what am I to do? What am I to do?
I do not believe in God anymore.
What am i to do?"
And you know what the pope said?
"Fake it."

From The Recruit movie.

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There always something missing..

every time i get close to,
it walks away from me..
I couldn't find it yet,
so, i just i stopped lookin' for.

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You're waiting for a train.
A train that will take you far away.
You know where you hope this train will take you,
but you can't be sure.
But it doesn't matter.
Because we'll be together.

from Inception movie.

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U r invading my mind again..
And it's okay wiz me
But please,
stay away from my dreams.

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The paint, butterfly girl for Rabi khan

wen it turns frm valentine's day 2 a 5arentines one :D

U've been in a bad mood all the day..

one of those days u just acting as u're lookin' 4 a fight

and after ur all tries don't work out..

and as ur mood is becoming worse..

U prefer keep silence and not talkin' 2 anyone!

Here where u wish if there're some danger sign above ur head,

2 make ppl stay away frm u

or even listen when u say u dun wanna 2 talk..

So ur perfect solution there is goin' 2 sleep

even if it's so early 2 do..

or even if u dun wanna 2 sleep at all..

it still ur only solution, so u take it.

U're there tryin' 2 sleep when u got that msg frm ur -dear- clz frnd

sayin' that u'd get a kiss if u clzd ur eye..

U just do -clz ur eyes-

2 find the next lines tellin' u there's no kiss 4 u bcz u havn't clz ur eyes 4 real!

Here's where ur mood becomes the worst

and all wt cms 2 ur mind,

but i hav -really- clzd my eyes!

Ur tears find there way 2 ur pillow,

u clz ur eyes whispering 2 ur-self

Happy 5arentine's day : )

14-2-2011

Some of my fav. "Felicity series" quotes..

The hardest part about moving forward

is not looking back.

I guess when your heart gets broken,

you sort of start to see the cracks in everything.

I've become a real believer in

not defining every single thing.

Seems like everytime you think you've figured out

what something is,

it just becomes something else.

You can't know who that person is,

the person who will become your ultimate confidant,

your soul mate, or your lover.

Sometimes bad things just happen..

no reason, no purpose.

They just occur and we're left to pick up

the pieces the best we can.

Sometimes in a relationship,

going through hell isn't so bad

if you come out of it a little stronger.

The same is true about friends.

Relationships are hard.

Do you know what I definitely believe in?

Fate..

that things happen for a reason.

Maybe getting over someone you’re in love with

isn’t impossible.

Unless, maybe you don’t actually get over it.

Maybe you just learn to live with it.

It's hard to articulate this thing that I'm so afraid of.

The future.

I mean, why should we be so afraid of the future?

It's just time... isn't it?

You made me fall for you and this is what’s not fair,

you knew it and you liked it!

The truth is I can’t be with you like this.

I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can’t.

I just can’t compromise myself like that.

I mean I’m an emotional person.

I feel things and I need to be able

to get upset and talk about how I’m feeling.

I mean that’s just…that’s who I am and I can’t change it.

I don’t want to.

And the thing is you know that,

you knew it and you still pursued me

because you want something with me,

you just aren’t strong enough to have it which…

in a way makes you a coward.

And the saddest part is that…

one day you’re gonna wake up

and you’re gonna realize what you missed

and it’s gonna be too late.

Sometimes expectations can inspire you..

but then again they can really let you down.

I just love you too much to be friends right now.

I'm not the one who is gonna get hurt,

you are.

May be it's like chemistry..

how certain elements are just attracted

to each other,

no matter what's the condition.

Just 4 record.. :D

2 days b4 Microbiology final exam
7/1/2011

From Assassins Movie..

Once upon a time,
there was this little sparrow,
who while flying south for the winter
froze solid and fell to the ground.

And then to make matters worse
the cow crapped on him,
but the manure was all warm
and it defrosted him.

So there he is,
he's warm and he's happy to be alive
and he starts to sing.
A hungry cat comes along
and he clears off the manure
and he looks at the little bird
and then he eats him.

And the moral of the story is this:
everyone who craps on you
is not necessarily your enemy,
and everyone who gets you out of crap
is not necessarily your friend,
and if you're warm and happy
wherever you are
you should just keep your big mouth shut.

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby..

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby.
It's the only thing i'm -really- good at
It doesn't need big effort from anyone 2 make me be..

It's just the tinniest things at all which make me do
The tinniest things r always the main reason
That's y i shouldn't think that much abt them
I may also should care less abt details
Damn details!

They r always the reason
Because both, if i don't take them that serious,
I won't care abt everything and everybody
and there -definitely- Hating my-self won't b my favorite hobby..

for God sake who wants it 2 b!

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby
It's the only thing I'm -really- good at
and it doesn't need big effort to b

But when I am,
There's nothing 2 do to make me feel better abt this!

U can only help by doing another tinny thing to make me,
Typically Hating My-self-

The window thing..

I have this picture in my mind

for me going out from the window..

when i get in troubles,

that's the only picture i think about.

I don't have a close scene 4 it..

i dunno what will happen after

i just know that i'll leave everything behind

and it'll be the end of everything/trouble

I dunno if that makes me considered

as suicidal persons or not?

but even if it does, i won't deny..

Deep sleeping is another option

going 2 sleep, and never wake up again

-that's will make me really considered as a suicidal person-

so i'll replace never wake up again with,

waking up latter

after everything is done

No matter what it'll take..

days, weeks, months..

No matter..

there's no problem as i won't b practically here..

but because the deep sleepin' option

is not applicable for me..

as i can't keep my eyes closed 4 more that six hours

- which r not sufficient 4 getting anything done-

The window still my ideal -applicable- solution

when i get in troubles..