Baaack to hooooooooooooooome

((BTW I got a 3 degrees after al tazallom

now i have 97.3 al7amdo le Allah))

Because U loved me..

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

Ill be forever thankful baby

Youre the one who held me up

Never let me fall

Youre the one who saw me through

through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldnt speak

You were my eyes when I couldnt see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldnt reach

You gave me faith coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all

Im grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I dont know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldnt speak

You were my eyes when I couldnt see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldnt reach

You gave me faith coz you believed

Im everything I am Because you loved me

taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag ;)

75%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?

ahmed (moparmeg hor) tagged me :))

and as i owe to him alot

i found my-self (4 the first time) loveing to answer tag lol

but it's an exception don't send another one :/

about the tag

it seems i'm addicted to blogging lol

ana kda (1 post at the month) w addicted lol

Back to life...

I finished my exams :)

I thought that day'll never come :)

or if it comes it won't find me :D

at the begining i wanna to thank some people

Thanks 4 every one prayed 4 me

Thanks 4 ahmad-mobarmeg and ahmed fouad al-din and proid 4 making the banners 4 me

Thanks for every one put the banner in his/her blog

especially the ones who don't know me and put it :)

it really pleased me to see my banner in ur blogs

I believe taht ur supplication had helped me alot :)

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It was so hard dayes

I didn't sleep before any exam :)

I used to sleep after coming-back from the school

(the bats' way, the day is the night and the night is the day :))

I remember when we (me and my anteem somaya)

said several times taht, we'll change that way

"when the schools comes we'll sleep at the night and wake at the day"

I remember when we went to school without sleeping @ the first day :)

coz our sleep time (6 o'clock) was the time we should to go to wear our clothes :)

I remember also the week before our exams

when we were on the phone saying:

"sure this system can't be in the exams

at th begining of this week we'll sleep @ 12:00 am and wake @ 8:00 am to get used to the exams time"

and sure we didn't :D

and sure we went the first day without sleeping as we always do :D

I remember that we said in the first week of our exams taht we r waiting 4 the chemistry day to orgnize our day :)

and I remember that we went to the chemistry exam without sleeping :D

after that we stopped talking about that deal :)

and when anyone says "U didn't sleep! howcome!"

we answered: "that's our system from the begining of the year

we couldn't change it before,

and we can't change it now :)"

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I cryed in some exams

some before, and some during

I didn't cry after :)

(exept 4 another reasons but not 4 the exam its-self :))

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I got ill at the middle of the third week of the exams

i tryed to resist 4 three days

but at the forth one I forgot to take the medicine before going to school

so i got high temperature at the car

and all my bones was hurting me

i couldn't move my head

and i was having mecanic exam :)

it was one of the worst days of my life

i had poultices in the class and many medicines

after that i was 39 degree :)

i got better at the end of the exam

but after going home I got ill again :(

I couldn't wake that day and the next one

i was extremely sick :(

it's along years since i got ill by that way

Thanks God i got better now :)

almost that's the head lines of my -finished- exams

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till now i can't acclimate with the new situation

(that, there's no study anymore)

i can't sleep :(

i can't enjoy my time :(

till now i can't feel that i have ended my suffering :(

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i got one of the worst news i have ever had

yoseeny (my turtle) has died :(

i didn't know there :(

i couldn't get the chance to cry and get sad..

I can't even talk about that matter now...

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my anteem (somaya) traveled to turkey today

she'll spend there 9 days :s

I went to her house to day to say goodbye

(i hate saying goodbye btw)

I cryed though i thought i won't :(

she sent me SMS when she arrived to turkey :))))

and called me minutes ago :)))

((I begane to Miss her))

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Thanks 4 being beside me through this all (f)

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I thought that we'll back again after our exams

now I begane doubt taht we won't :(

(hope to be wrong)

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I was intending to watch all the new movies that i missed watching them through this year

I sat infront of the PC and opened the movies partition

and found my-self watching "phone booth"

the movie which i saw many times :D

leaving all the new ones :))

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I begane reading "Harry potter (5)"

((Harry potter and the order of the phoenix))

it seems i can't live without reading :))

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btw, i read many posts 4 the people whome i used to read their works

maybe i didn't left comments there

but make sure that i did :)

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I'll Miss my school..

My frnds..

I'll Miss all the teachers and all what we used to do with them :))

I'll Miss to sheat at the absence :)

i'm saving my own copy of it -the absence- till now :)

I'll Miss our school roof :)

and the time we spent there during our years at the school

it's my only school

I spent there 12 years :)

((the old of my frindship with salma :)))

I'll Miss our unique uniform -the gray one-

which made the people thougth we r at the preparatory stage lol

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I know this post is so long and not well-arranged as my last ones

but i had many things to say and i didn't know how to say it all through one post :)

Thanks 4 U all again

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OH,,

I was about to forget!

4 all the people who r putting my banner -I mean my pic- in their blog

plz remove it :)

I think next days I'll find some people chating with it looool

really, it was a great idea from ahmed :)

but i think it's enough :)

it's also completely against my mysterious character ;)

.....و ألقـــاكـــــم بعــــــــد الفــــاصــــــــــل

هيييييييييييييييييييييييييييييييي

((: اخيرا بكتب بوست جديد

((: لأ و ايه بالعربي

طبعا قبل ما تسرحوا و مخكوا يروح لبعيد

البوست ده مش لوجه الله كده

ده الغرض منه

إعلامكم بمعاد امتحاناتي الشريفة

اللي هيا يوم السبت اللي بعد الجاااااي

2/6/07

و هتنتهي بإذن الله يوم

24/6/07

طبعا التاريخ ده تحفظوه زي اساميكو كده (يا حبذا لو أكتر من اساميكو كمان)

عشان ابتداءًَ (اولموست هيا بتتكتب كده لول) من هذا التاريخ اللي هو 2/6 لحد 24/6

يومياً

بمعدل 5 مرات (((:مع الصلوات الخمسة يعني)

لو أكتر يبقى خير و بركة لول

و خدوا بالكم ان لما هتدعولي الملايكة هتقولوكو و لكم مثلها

((; يعني جاية عليكو بمكسب اهه

((: و يا سلام بقى عالثواب اللي هتاخدوه اما تنشروا الموضوع ده

((: يعني نظام أنشر تؤجر

كل واحد ينزل بوست يقول فيه ادعو ل منة

و يا ريت أحمد مبرمج حر يتكرم و يعمل بانر (ولا مش عارفة اسمه ايه ده)

يقول ادعوا ل منة

(يا سلام بقى يابو حميد لو عملت تاج... "هل دعيت ل منة؟؟؟" )

((: و المدونين كلهم يقوموا بلطعه في مدوناتهم

و على الله أدخل مرة مدونة مالاقيش البوست و البانر ده اللي

/: بتقولوا فيه ادعوا ل منة

و يا حبذا بقى (شوفتو حبذا دي)

لو ايميلات و مسجات فيها الجملة دي

"ادعوا ل منة (انشر تؤجر)"

و هنيالك يا فاعل الخير

و الدال عالخير كفاعله

ياللا عليزة أشوف الحاجات اللي قلت عليها دي

ما تكامنتووش

نزلو البوستات على طوووووووووول

ملحوظة:

1) :إلى احمد مبرمج حر

متكمنتش عندي قبل ما تصمم البتاع

/: اللي انا قايلة عليه فوق ده

/: ورينا البرمجة بقى

2) :إلى الناس اللي هتدعي

يا ريت الدعا يبقى بذمة و يكون على وضوء هه؟؟

أشــــــــــــــــــوف وشكـــــــــــــــــوا بخيـــــــــــــــــــــــر

I can't..

- He: la2 mainfa3sh....................................

3shan al sagaier..

-Me: enta lsa mabataltesh bardo :/?

-He: msh 3aref

-Me: msh 3aref tbattal??

-He: ah, 3shan kda maba7ebesh a3mel ay haga..

3shan maba3rafsh abatalha ba3d kda..

-Me: just smiled,

and remembered how he can't stop loving her till now :)

delayed post..

you said:
"one day you'll understand,
and you'll thank me"

though i couldn't understand till now
but all what i can say
Thank you
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you asked me once
to not hate u

i swear i didn't
i just stopped loving u

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i looked @ my mobile

u were calling

Maybe if i tryed, i'ld answer

but i didn't!

i didn't try 2 answer!

i didn't call u back!

i didn't even try to send u a message!

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i once thought we could be frnds again

i was completely wrong

i thought we can undo the last line in our drawing (our relationship)

but it wasn't true

coz as long as i have the drawing

i'll dwar that line again and again :)

u know what was the problrm at all??

that nothing have been changed to talk together again :)

it might worked if ur feelings were changed

coz then when i'll tell u that

"I Miss U"

u won't answer

"I Miss U 2" !

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u have the same opinion (Mayeb the right one)

and I have the same feelings (also u do)

so what the point in waste our times in such a game!

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when i published the post "The perfect painting"

i have recieved that coment

"fighting 4 something u like alot but u know inside u it will never be urs"

i have been shocked when i saw those words

she is right!

I'm fighting 4 something I know inside ME it will never be Mine!

i just hurt My-self more and more!

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when i called u on 5/2 i thought there that there won't be another call!

many people said the same thing

though they were another ones not just one

though they were longer than the first

it still tha same!

Nothing has been change!

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recentely u told me kidding that i have a black heart

taht i was blaming u 4 something

Maybe i had not

but now i think i have :)

i told u that i have been changed but u didn't believe

i told u once that i can't sign with "Ur Angel"

coz i'm not an angel anymore to be yours

but u answered there that i'm an angel an i'll always be

i just not yours

i hope u believed me now :)

i'm sure u did!

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I saw u online many times

i didn't talk to U

and so u didn't :)

i always used to start talking and u only reply :)

so when i didn't start talking u didn't find anything 2 reply on and kept silence!

we stay online 4 hours with no one word!

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last days u sent me many msgs

i wondered why u do!

one of them was saying something like

if there were anybody beside me?

and if there were i'ld beat him

coz u r mad with him

how he sees me and u don't

i'ld reply with those words

"coz it was ur choice"

then i prefered to keep silent :)

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I'm still on my word

I won't forget U

I won't forget that U once were the most important thing in my life

I won't forget the times we shared together

the happy times and the sad ones

I won't forget ur number (who knows maybe i do one day)

i won't forget ur voice (as I think)

I won't forget that U once were my best close friend i have ever had :)

taht u entered my life in a dark time and brighted it

(No matter if u left it more dark that first)

But that's thing really I'll never forget

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U know what
U entered my life in April
and now i'm getting u out of it
on another April
what a fate!

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I just wanna to thank U alot
Thank U 4 every little thing U have done 4 me oneday
Thank U all the things I have learned from U
Thank U 4 being once in My Life
and Thank U 4 being out it now

Thanks!