can't it be?

u r the one who always talk
the one who always complain
who always tell me about those stuff annoying u
who always say that u have no friends -though I'm here-
and that u r alone
who always off the mood

and when i do...

u don't listen when i do!
so, why should i talk?

and if i didn't
if i didn't tell u that i was feelin' bad
-though i know i did-
can't u just feel it?
can't u know that I'm feelin' bad without i tell u?
just from my voice?
can't u know?
-as i always do-
just for changing sake!

can't it once be about me,
that I'm the one who feelin' bad?

always, when i call u -because i don't feel good-
first i ask u about ur-self
u tell me that u r not OK
so..
i don't tell u how i am!

and today..
today, i was feelin' bad
i thought it was obviously
but as u haven't noticed i told u
but u didn't listen
u always don't listen to me when i'm talkin'

I know one day i was ur clz frnd
and I know this person has been gone
and sure u r missing me/him
but i can't do any better
that's all i can do
that's all what i really do have!

I'm sorry i've disappointed u today
i haven't been so much caring
i haven't been your close understandable friend
but i've been NOT for along time
-in case u haven't noticed-
and sure i am not now

sorry again..
i know i made u feel worse
but i was already feelin' bad..

can't it once be about me?
just 4 CHANGING sake!

The dreaming thing.

The good part of being wake up, that u r going 2 b sleep again.
and the bad part of sleepin' that u r gonna 2 have some dreams.
The worst thing about dreaming.. when u r at the middle of dream
-whatever it's really sweet one or a nightmare-

and u know it's a dream,
it's not for real..
U wanna get out of it.

u know u r sleepin'
and that's just a (good/bad) dream
U really wanna escape away from..

But u can't!
U can't wake up..

The amazin' part of having such a dream,
(which u can't get away from)
-whatever good/bad-
that when u finally wake up,

U find your-self can't remember anything!

like if it wasn't there the last seconds..

U only have the impression about it
either happiness or misery,
-in case it's good/bad dream respectively-
but -still- can't remember
anything at all!

It's like having some hollow part at ur mind
like, if there were something a minute ago,
and someone has removed it
leaving an empty space at your head.

Only traces all what u got,
traces which -may be- have been forgotten
to be removed with the whole thing.

U have only the lay out of the dream,
but never remember what it was about
or whom were there?

why u have this impression
-whatever it's good or bad-
and who has caused it!

You never know..

That's why i do hate the dreaming thing at all.

I wish i never have dreams.

Because what's the value of having something,
-whatever good or bad-
when you'll never remember
anything about -even- having it!

May be...

Alex: Does it hurt ?
Izzie: Yeah.
Alex: Where does it hurt?
Izzie: Everywhere.
Alex: Maybe it hurts for a reason.

from season 3 Episode "sometimes fantacy"

I dunno..

I'm ...

I don't know how it happened,

that I don't have anyone, but...

I don't have anyone.

Izzie from grey's anatomy season 5 episode 3 "Here Comes the Flood"

Is she?

She's smiling. Is she happy?

She looks happy. So, what does it matter?



(Betty Warren from Mona Lisa Smile movie)

a MSG has ben received.

a MSG has been received.
The sender is your friend,
-one of whom u used 2 call a close one-

asks about u..
says that she misses u..
tells u to say "Hi" to your other friends
-the ones whom used 2 be your other closed friends-

when u read the MSG u feel like crying..

Not because u really miss her,
or because u remember the old days,

when u used to see each other every day..

and u weren't in need of sending MSGs there
-although they're a good reasons to do-

but u do -feel like crying-
cause she thinks that,
because u r at the same university
with your other friends
-your both closed ones-
you see them a lot ,
and can tell them that she says "Hi"

u remember when u did the same thing..
when u asked one of your friends
- one of whom used to be a close one-
to say "Hi" for your other friends
-your both closed ones-
as u thought they see each other a lot

because they are at the same faculty!

Then u realize that..

when u r alone,
u think all the other ones are together.

Today..

Today,
when She was eating alone at their usual
-and not favorite-
restaurant

She's missed him..

She couldn't complete her fried potatos
and found no real desire in eating the pepsi's ice

Today, when She was eating alone
at their usual -and not favorite- restaurant..

She made sure that,

She loves Him.