it's really hurts me..

It has been so hard 4 me when it's about death cases..

finding no words 2 say, is the most thing annoying me..

(as i am a real talkative one! )

so, why at this cases i can't say a word!

Instead of making the other one holds and be stronger,

I became weak..

Instead of asking them to not cry,

I got weeping..

I can't deal with goodbye when it's only a temporary farewell..

so, i can't even imagine what if it is a permanent one!

and so, my only wish became..

just to be the 1st one who go there of all the people i do love..

cause simply,

I can't -till now- acclimate with the fact of "Farewell" ..

the idea of losing someone 4ever!

Not only u won't see them, or u won't have them at ur life..

nope!

They, won't be even exist in this world anymore..

Not wiz u, not wiz anyone else..

The idea of staying when the others are leaving,

is really hurts me!

so hard to get, so hard 2 believe, and so hard 2 live with..

and here we are..

Pharmacy's Girl

Can it be ?!!

Do we have 2 live every moment of our lifes?!

can't we just pass some whiles away!

i know it seems so strange so i'll give u an example..

what if u have today some thing (event, situation, whatever) something u really want to not attend!

(not talk here about not having it, only not attending)

let's say it's from 5 pm to 7 pm

can't u at 4.599 pm pass by some way?

(even by just closing ur eyes!)

and the next time u open ur eyes it be 7.01 pm!

u just escaped this time (5:7 pm)

and u will got the same result ( the event/situation will happened only u won't attend the happening of it)

can't we just wen we don't wanna 2 attend 2morrow..

sleep at ! night, to wake up at the day after 2morrow??!

does it possible??!

can it ever happen??!

cause i really NEED it..

:)

My last drawing on teh last lecture of dr. ahmed's lectures (organic dr) lol

it wasn't mine..

me, how r u?

a frnd, still alive..

me, "still alive" nice, it reminds me wiz someone :)

a frnd, who?

me, someone whome i don't talk to anymore :)

a frnd, and why do u lose anyone 4 any reason??

me, it wasn't my choice there..

a frnd, may be..

I miss u..

Today at the dinner

i found no one to peel the shrimp 4 me

Today at the dinner, i missed u mum

i really do now..

U were always a special frnd 4 me,

and u'll always be..

I really miss our old days, i won't 4get them never,

it seems there's nothing can last 4ever..