Me, talking

The Tuesday-positive effect

2012-01-18T13:40:00.000-08:00

It's when I'm having one of those exams which i know it won't freely pass

I don't sleep, would u do if you were me?!

my stomach-ache, its own way to tell me she's really upset

my heart beats so fast, that's what happen when u over-take of caffeine

my respiration is stimulated so far i can't take my breath!

and all what i think about,

Tomorrow is a Tuesday..

It won't be fair if i got my first "F" on Tuesday

it'd be okay if it was a wednes-one

(Thanks God am not having exams on Wednesdays)

I know how tough tomorrow will be, but still -secretly- wish for

better results, for another things to happen..

I tell my friend about my thoughts, She thanks God no one else is listening

otherwise they will think I'm a crazy person

Tomorrow comes..

things go in a further better way than what was supposed to be..

written exam freely pass, also the oral one

won't be my "A" subject, but though getting "B" still a huge progress

It was was 2:45 pm when i talked to "Nader" to book me a bus ticket

and he told me either i catch the 3:00 pm bus

or I'll have to wait for the 4:00 pm one

It took another 5 minutes to find a taxi, so it seemed i won't make it

But here when things go right

I arrive the station on time, the bus hasn't come yet

I got a double sit so I guarantee sitting beside the window

(which really means a lot for me)

The bus comes and everything is just happening exactly the way i hoped for

Here's the time I realize that all my wishes for the day have been come true

you may call this a good luck

you may call this an answered prayer

But that's what I'm calling,

The Tuesday-positive effect :D

عن الخراء نتحدث..

2011-09-05T17:09:00.000-07:00

* تنويه لا بد منه; قد تحتوي النوت على بعض الكلمات والمشاهد التي قد يأنف منها البعض

هل تعلم عزيزي القارئ/عزيزتي القارئة

!أن الخراء أصبح منتشراً للغاية في كل ما حولنا

فعلى سبيل المثال وليس الحصر،

أصبح الآن من المعتاد ان تسمتع إلى مصطلحات مثل

"الخراء الفكري - الخراء الفنّي - الخراء الكوني"

حتى عالم الأزياء لم يسلم من الأمر هو الآخر

!فاللون الخرائي هو الأكثر إنتشاراً هذا العام

.الكثير من الخراء والهراء أيضاً إن صح التعبير

بالرغم من ذلك تجد العديد من الأشخاص

"يتضررون من ويرفضون إستعمال الكلمة "خراء

التي باتت منتشرة بين كثر من أبناء هذا الجيل

للتعبير عن مدى سوء الحال

هؤلاء الناس يذكرونني بالشخص

الذي يهم -بعد الإنتهاء من قضاء حاجته- بشد السيفون

ليزيل أثر الخراء من قاع قاعدة التواليت

متجاهلاً بذلك - وربما كان متناسياً - حقيقة انه بفعلته هذه

!قد قدم المزيد من الخراء لهذا العالم

هل تعلم عزيزي القارئ/عزيزتي القارئة

أنه لا توجد- بالفعل- أي إحصائيات

!عن مدى إنتشار الخراء في المجتمع

نعم سيدي/سيدتي

"فالقائمون بعمل الإحصائيات

مازالو يتعاملون مع الأمر بمبدأ "السيفون

-اسمح لي أن اتخذه مبدئاً-

إذا كنت سيدي/سيدتي أحد هؤلاء

فما عليك سوى أن تتجاهل -تماماً- ما قرأت

ولتعتبر هذا مثال حي على الخراء الفكري

- الذي أشرت إليه ف أول الكلام -

ف أنا من البداية لم أكن أوجه كلامي إليك

أنت

"وكل من يتعامل مع الأمر بمبدأ "السيفون

بل أوجهه لي والأمثالي

نحنُ

من نقطن في البلاعة

.اللي بيصرّف عليها سيفون حضرتك

*االصورة من فيلم slumdog millionaire

For all my depressed friends..

2011-07-21T04:57:00.000-07:00

Everything will be okay

I believe it will

and i so believe one day we will remember nowdays and just smile

as we do now for many days else

I believe that tomorrow is better

even if we couldn't see that now

It'll be

and there..

we will be so grateful to God

for takin' those things we loved away

and for not listening to our prayers

Because one day..

It will be further much better

than we ever planed for

and we will remember nowdays

and just smile : )

Rhe Exams Relapse Thing..

2011-07-01T20:18:00.000-07:00

Damn Exams!
They always bring me back to the same point!

26/6/2011

Rabbit Hole Movie

2011-06-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

Jason: "If space is infinite,
then there are tons of you’s out there,
and tons of me’s."

Becca: "And so this is just the sad version of us…
but there are other versions where everything goes our way…
and those versions exist.
They’re not hypothetical; they’re actual, real people."

Jason: "Assuming you believe in science."

Becca: "I like that thought.
That somewhere out there I’m having a good time."

The parallel universes thing..

2011-06-23T21:15:00.000-07:00

Have u ever heard about the parallel universes thing?

That there're many copies of us

out there.. at some where..

living a parallel lives of ours!

I haven't read about the whole thing

but yet i like the idea..

Because it could explain many things to me

like the picture i -always- have in my mind

for me.. happily, getting out from the window

which i know it didn't/won't happen in this universe..

It may also explain the events

which seems too real to be happening at somewhere else..

for me and you..

I do like and most likely to believe in it

though i haven't read about the whole thing yet

and though i know u won't have the same beliefs of mine

even if u read about the whole -parallel universes- thing.

Inspired from Rabbit Hole movie

رجال من المريخ ونساء من الزهرة

2011-06-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

أنا عارفة إن ملكش ذنب

وانك معملتليش حاجة

بس أنا كنت محتجالك

وإنت سبتني ورحت نمت!

أنا دلوقتي هعيط شوية وهنام

وهصحى بكرة الاقي كل حاجة

زي ماهي..

بحطة ايدي!

يمكن لو كنت إستنيت شوية

ومسبتنيش ورحت نمت

كان بقى في أي أمل

إن بكرة يبقى أحسن من النهاردة

ومكنتش هروح أنام دلوقتي

و انا عارفة اني هصحى على بكرة

زي امبارح و أوله.

Noha again and again..

2011-06-15T15:10:00.000-07:00

when i saw u today

i just looked at the opposite side

Because i was really feelin' so bad

and i couldn't see u smiling at the world just like that!

when i saw u today

i was on my way to the station to spend the next hour

-alone- waiting for the bus,

and i think u know when u spend the time alone w8ing

for something to happen

or someone to come

it seems like it'll never happen/come..

when i saw u today

i was having a Typical Wednesday

and u know how much i do hate wednesdays..

It's just i didn't know that seeing u

could make up my day and my mood like this!

Getting a bus ticket 1 hour before my actual one

Sitting at my Dream sit beside the driver

Receiving this msg from Malak my friend,

tellin' me that everything will be okay about the oral exam..

Noha,

when i saw u 2day

i just looked at the opposite side..

but i promise i'll never turn my face away from you again

No matter what..

because now i know,

that only seeing u,

is able to literally made my day

*Noha, is the One at the picure :)

Because you loved me..

2011-06-10T06:59:00.001-07:00

لما اتقابلنا أول مرة جبتلي بوكيه ورد بلاستيك

من اللي العرايس بيمسكوه ف ايدهم ده

و قولتلي أنا عارف انك مبتحبيش الورد البلاستيك

بس الراجل مكنش عنده ورد طبيعي!

انك تبقى عارف الحاجة اللي بحبها وتحاول تعملها على اد ماتقدر

بس عشان ترضيني

ده -بالنسبالي- كان سبب اكبر بكتير من كافي عشان أحبك

أنا اللي متعودة من الناس يبقوا عارفين كل الحاجات إلي بتضايقني

و بكل بساطة -ونمطية- يعملوها!

عشان كدا مش بزعل نهائي لما بتجبلي وردة بلاستيك بدل الطبيعي

عشان ملقتش

أو لما بتغنيلي أول كوبليه من أغنية وتسكت

عشان مش فاكر بقيتها

أو لما بتحكيلي حدوتة مكونة من سطرين

عشان مبتعرفش تحكي حواديت

بالعكس ببقى مبسوطة جداً

وبتأكد ساعتها إني كان عندي حق لما حبيتك

العنوان: اغنية لسيلين ديون

الصورة: لمحمد وهو بيديني الوردة البلاستيك

عوم واتمختر.. عوم واتمختر*

2011-05-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

شكراً عشان كل مرة، كنت باجي اقترح عليكي فيها إقتراح مجنون

و انا متأكدة انك أكيد مش هترضي

بالعكس يا هتشتميني يا هتحدفيني بحاجة ف وشي

كنتي بتفاجئيني وبتوافقي!

شكراً عشان لما جتلك مرة الساعة 6 الصبح أصحيكي من النوم

واقوللك قومي البسي عشان نخرج قبل منروح الكلية

مشتمتنيش ولا زعقتيلي وكل اللي عملتيه قولتيلي

"هنروح فين بس دلوقتي؟"

"فلما قلتلك "أي حتة

قمتي فعلاً لبستي وخرجنا سوا الساعة 7 قبل منروح الكلية!

شكراً عشان لما كانت الدنيا بترخ

وكانت أمنية حياتي ساعتها اني أنزل أقف تحت المطرة

وافقتي تنزلي معايا

رغم انك كنتي لسة جاية من تحت

ورغم إن الساعة كانت ساعتها عدت 8

(التمام بتاعنا فالمدينة)

وفعلاً نزلتي ودورتي معايا تحت المطرة كمان

شكراً عشان لما جتلك من يومين أقولك أنا مخنوقة وعايزة أخرج

وكان عندنا تاني يوم 3 إمتحانات ومكناش لسة فتحنا ولا واحد فيهم

مطلعتيش فيا أكلتينتي ووافقتي

لحد دلوقتي معرفش ازاي!

شكراً على كل مرة ضحكنا فيها من قلبنا بجد لحد ما عيطنا

على كل ليلة أو نهار إمتحان قضيناه سوا

بنتكلم فيه عن كل حاجة وأي حاجة

تانية غير المادة اللي المفروض نروح نمتحن فيها

شكراً على كل فيلم شفناه سوا

وكل أغنية سمعناها سوا

وكل خروجة خرجناها مع بعض

على كل إمتحان دخلناه واحنا مش مذاكرين

وكل إمتحان دخلناه معرفناش نحل فيه و قعدنا نبص لبعض ونضحك

شكراً عشان انتي كنتي أول صاحبة أطلع بيها من أم الكلية دي

وبرغم اني مقدرش اتنبأ من دلوقتي احنا هنفضل صحاب لحد امتى

الا اني عارفة ان لو كل حاجة بيننا اتقطعت

واتقابلنا او اتكلمنا بعد كام سنة مش هتبقي نستيني

ولو حصل ومافتكرتنيش..

فانا متأكدة اني مش هزعل ساعتها

*العنوان اسقاط على ذاكرة ولاء الفلاشية

**الصورة بحسها محاولة من رابي خان لرسمنا

One day I'll fly away...

2011-04-30T13:05:00.000-07:00

I follow the night

Can't stand the light

I have this picture in my mind

for me..

Happily, getting out from the window

What more could your love do for me

When will love be through with me

It have been there so long

and every day it become clearer

everyday more details are added

It's just there in a very strange way

which makes me sometimes think,

That some one has infected my mind!

That someone has incepted this thing into my head..

That falling is my cure..

and everything else doesn't matter

and everything latter will be better

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends

Maybe because in City Of Angels,

Seth hasn't died when he fall

and may be because the same fall in Inception

means that u'll wake up from the dream

u don't wanna to be at anymore

and turn back to ur life

or maybe because flying away

is my all life dream,

and this could be the only way

i'll ever have it true.

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

عم محمد و ماذا بعد 25 يناير..

2011-03-11T11:00:00.000-08:00

عم محمد هو العسكري اللي بيقعد على باب كليتنا..

و هو هواه نفس العسكري اللي من سنتين فاتوا كان بيقف على باب المدينة..

كان كل ما يشوفني يقوللي ذات النضارة السوداء

لما كنت بقلعها كان بيوقفني..

ولما اطلعهاله او اشاورله عليها كان بيدخلني على طول

عم محمد لما اتنقل وجه الكلية عندنا،

معرفش ربط ان انا ذات النضارة السوداء ولا لأ.. لانه عمره ما قالهالي تاني

بس فضل بيعاملني معاملة خاصة برده وكل مايشوفني يقوللي ســـمــــــر

لحد ما مرة قلتله انا مش سمر على فكرة قاللي امال انتي مين؟ قلتله منة

واتحول اللقاء اليومي ل سـمــر؟ لأ انتي منة صح.. امال فين سمر؟

فارد على اسئلته وامشي..

على اخر الترم كان بطل يتلخبظ بيننا خلاص

مكانش بيقوللي غير منة..

وفي الامتحانات مكنتش بمتحن في الكلية اصلا

بس كنت بعدي من قدام صيدلة في طريقي لتجارة

كان كل يوم ينده عليا بصوته الجهوري مـــنـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــة

يفرج عليا البنات كلها

كنت طبعا بقف ارد عليه عشان يسألني ازيك و يقوللي ربنا معاكي

وبعد الامتحان لما برجع الكلية عشان الشفوي برده كان بينده عليا عشان يسألني عملت ايه

نفس الحكاية بعد الشفوي وانا مروحة

مرة اصلا اتأخرنا في الشفوي ولقيته طالع الدور الرابع و كلمني كالعادة

هو اكيييد طبعا كان طالع لسبب تاني

بس الافيه حكم انه طلع يدور عليا لما اتأخرت

الخلاصة ان عم محمد فعليا كان شابهني

اكيد البنت اللي العسكري -اللي هو تابع حرس الجامعة-

بيندهلها في الرايحة والجاية، عصفورة!

وش يعني

عشان كده اخر يوم ف امتحانتنا لما كنت مغيرة لفة الطرحة

و عم محمد معرفنيش لما عديت من قدامه

بس قعد يبصلي كأنه بيشبه عليا..

حمدت ربــنـــا..

لما الدراسة قعدت تتأجل اسبوع ورا اسبوع اتضايقت

واكتأبت لما قالولي اننا ممكن منرجعش تاني

عشان انا مسلمتش على حد من صحابي اخر يوم لاني كنت مستعجلة

مكنتش اعرف ان الاسبوعين هيبقوا ستة..

اكيد لو كنت اعرف كنت استنيت شوية وسلمت عالناس كلها

دلوقتي الدراسة خلاص هترجع بكرة

وهروح الكلية وهشوف صحابي اللي مسلمتش عليهم اخر يوم

بس الاكييد اني لما اروح الكلية بعد بكرة عم محمد هيكون مشي خلاص..

مشي راح فين ولا هيعمل ايه؟ عمري ما هعرف.. بس الاكيد اني هحاول..

سمية صاحبتي كل مانتكلم عن الظباط و هيروحوا فين

تقوللي يودوهم المرور على سبيل التريقة يعني..

بحاول اتخيل عم محمد و هو واقف في الاشارة.. بس مبعرفش!

عم محمد..

لو كنت اعرف اخر يوم امتحانات ان دي هتبقى اخر مرة اشوفك فيها،

اكيد مكنتش هسيبك تشبه عليا ولا اديك ضهري

اكيد كنت هاجي اسلم عليك..

وتأكد ان ده هيحصل لو شفتك ف يوم من الايام

حتى لو كان ده ف اشارة مرور..

Unrelated -or maybe related- thoughts.. .

2011-02-24T13:31:00.000-08:00

How did u become my shadow, my ghost?
How did u become the one who's freakin' me out the most?

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Never say I love you if you don't really care
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart
Never say you are going to if you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie
Never say hello if you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever, then please say you'll try
Never say forever because forever makes me cry.

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Because I'm ur "reference"
and U r my "curse"

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There's this parish priest,
goes up to the Pope,
drops down on his knees,
starts weeping, asking forgiveness.
"Holy father, holy father,

what am I to do? What am I to do?
I do not believe in God anymore.
What am i to do?"
And you know what the pope said?
"Fake it."

From The Recruit movie.

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There always something missing..

every time i get close to,
it walks away from me..
I couldn't find it yet,
so, i just i stopped lookin' for.

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You're waiting for a train.
A train that will take you far away.
You know where you hope this train will take you,
but you can't be sure.
But it doesn't matter.
Because we'll be together.

from Inception movie.

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U r invading my mind again..
And it's okay wiz me
But please,
stay away from my dreams.

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The paint, butterfly girl for Rabi khan

wen it turns frm valentine's day 2 a 5arentines one :D

2011-02-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

U've been in a bad mood all the day..

one of those days u just acting as u're lookin' 4 a fight

and after ur all tries don't work out..

and as ur mood is becoming worse..

U prefer keep silence and not talkin' 2 anyone!

Here where u wish if there're some danger sign above ur head,

2 make ppl stay away frm u

or even listen when u say u dun wanna 2 talk..

So ur perfect solution there is goin' 2 sleep

even if it's so early 2 do..

or even if u dun wanna 2 sleep at all..

it still ur only solution, so u take it.

U're there tryin' 2 sleep when u got that msg frm ur -dear- clz frnd

sayin' that u'd get a kiss if u clzd ur eye..

U just do -clz ur eyes-

2 find the next lines tellin' u there's no kiss 4 u bcz u havn't clz ur eyes 4 real!

Here's where ur mood becomes the worst

and all wt cms 2 ur mind,

but i hav -really- clzd my eyes!

Ur tears find there way 2 ur pillow,

u clz ur eyes whispering 2 ur-self

Happy 5arentine's day : )

14-2-2011

Some of my fav. "Felicity series" quotes..

2011-01-23T00:32:00.000-08:00

The hardest part about moving forward

is not looking back.

I guess when your heart gets broken,

you sort of start to see the cracks in everything.

I've become a real believer in

not defining every single thing.

Seems like everytime you think you've figured out

what something is,

it just becomes something else.

You can't know who that person is,

the person who will become your ultimate confidant,

your soul mate, or your lover.

Sometimes bad things just happen..

no reason, no purpose.

They just occur and we're left to pick up

the pieces the best we can.

Sometimes in a relationship,

going through hell isn't so bad

if you come out of it a little stronger.

The same is true about friends.

Relationships are hard.

Do you know what I definitely believe in?

Fate..

that things happen for a reason.

Maybe getting over someone you’re in love with

isn’t impossible.

Unless, maybe you don’t actually get over it.

Maybe you just learn to live with it.

It's hard to articulate this thing that I'm so afraid of.

The future.

I mean, why should we be so afraid of the future?

It's just time... isn't it?

You made me fall for you and this is what’s not fair,

you knew it and you liked it!

The truth is I can’t be with you like this.

I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can’t.

I just can’t compromise myself like that.

I mean I’m an emotional person.

I feel things and I need to be able

to get upset and talk about how I’m feeling.

I mean that’s just…that’s who I am and I can’t change it.

I don’t want to.

And the thing is you know that,

you knew it and you still pursued me

because you want something with me,

you just aren’t strong enough to have it which…

in a way makes you a coward.

And the saddest part is that…

one day you’re gonna wake up

and you’re gonna realize what you missed

and it’s gonna be too late.

Sometimes expectations can inspire you..

but then again they can really let you down.

I just love you too much to be friends right now.

I'm not the one who is gonna get hurt,

you are.

May be it's like chemistry..

how certain elements are just attracted

to each other,

no matter what's the condition.

Just 4 record.. :D

2011-01-06T23:35:00.000-08:00

2 days b4 Microbiology final exam
7/1/2011

From Assassins Movie..

2011-01-04T02:36:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time,
there was this little sparrow,
who while flying south for the winter
froze solid and fell to the ground.

And then to make matters worse
the cow crapped on him,
but the manure was all warm
and it defrosted him.

So there he is,
he's warm and he's happy to be alive
and he starts to sing.
A hungry cat comes along
and he clears off the manure
and he looks at the little bird
and then he eats him.

And the moral of the story is this:
everyone who craps on you
is not necessarily your enemy,
and everyone who gets you out of crap
is not necessarily your friend,
and if you're warm and happy
wherever you are
you should just keep your big mouth shut.

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby..

2010-11-18T21:32:00.000-08:00

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby.
It's the only thing i'm -really- good at
It doesn't need big effort from anyone 2 make me be..

It's just the tinniest things at all which make me do
The tinniest things r always the main reason
That's y i shouldn't think that much abt them
I may also should care less abt details
Damn details!

They r always the reason
Because both, if i don't take them that serious,
I won't care abt everything and everybody
and there -definitely- Hating my-self won't b my favorite hobby..

for God sake who wants it 2 b!

Hating my-self is my favorite hobby
It's the only thing I'm -really- good at
and it doesn't need big effort to b

But when I am,
There's nothing 2 do to make me feel better abt this!

U can only help by doing another tinny thing to make me,
Typically Hating My-self-

The window thing..

2010-10-20T15:21:00.000-07:00

I have this picture in my mind

for me going out from the window..

when i get in troubles,

that's the only picture i think about.

I don't have a close scene 4 it..

i dunno what will happen after

i just know that i'll leave everything behind

and it'll be the end of everything/trouble

I dunno if that makes me considered

as suicidal persons or not?

but even if it does, i won't deny..

Deep sleeping is another option

going 2 sleep, and never wake up again

-that's will make me really considered as a suicidal person-

so i'll replace never wake up again with,

waking up latter

after everything is done

No matter what it'll take..

days, weeks, months..

No matter..

there's no problem as i won't b practically here..

but because the deep sleepin' option

is not applicable for me..

as i can't keep my eyes closed 4 more that six hours

- which r not sufficient 4 getting anything done-

The window still my ideal -applicable- solution

when i get in troubles..

The Ring

2010-09-23T10:23:00.000-07:00

The ring

the holy circle which encircle/surround my finger

that circle which belongs to someone else

with his name on it

Not me, Not mine

another one's ring is what i'm -happily- puttin' on now

and me,

the one who always used to hate the engaged ppl

especially -silly- engaged girl

now is puttin' ring

and can't stop playing with

staring on it 2 c if it still seems that new

watchin' it 2 c if it's stopped sparkling yet

at another place, around his finger

Mine is

My ring

with my name on it

Not his

and i know he's -happily- putting on

and both -our rings- having the same date

our date,

The day when our life together -officially- began

I just can't stop looking at -mostly- all the time

2 c if it suits my finger the best

or 2 make sure it's still on there

or 2 wonder when it won't sparkling that much

and stop being that new

I just love my ring

my Holly circle which encircles/surrounds my finger

that ring which belongs to someone else

Not me

but i'm happily -indeed- to be puttin' on :)

Not happy..

2010-08-28T10:18:00.000-07:00

Not happy..

not like yesterday..

that's y i stayed awake till 2day's morning

bcz i didn't want yesterday to end

I didn't want today to come

not when it's like that..

not when it's after yesterday..

Not happy..

"I get angry when I go without sleep"

2010-08-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

"The expected is what keeps us steady,
the unexpected is what changes our lives."

------------------------

Being expected is wt really annoying

knowing what u gonna do

taht u won't call/text/show up/say sry........etc

all the un-expected things frm u 2 do

is what really hurts

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"It's the not knowing that does it.
Not knowing if he's ok.
Not knowing if he's coming back.
Maybe I've just been dumped.
I mean, It's not knowing if I'm single that makes me wanna throw up all day long."

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It's abt knowing what will happen

and wanting what will not happen to happen

either should make u disappointed more?

the expected?

or the unexpected?

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"I don't know what I believe in anymore."

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every question supposed 2 have a right and wrong answer

every one is

every time u've been asked a question

u try to figure it out

which the wrong and which the right

till u know it

or u think u know it

it always begin when u eliminate one

the wrong answer i mean

it always good 2 make elimination

because there will be only one to be right

what i am saying,

it doesn't always mean this one is right

because certain questions has no right answers

certain questions r meant 2 b only with wrong answers

------------------------

"What the hell has happened to us?"

------------------------

I'll explain more

if i hide smth in my hands

and asked u 2 pick a hand

and u picked the right hand

then, it wasn't the right answer

is this mean that the left hand is the right one?

absolutely not

because i may hide nothing in my both hands

here

in this case

there's no right answer

all r wrong

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"Once you crossed, it's almost impossible to go back."

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what i'm trying 2 say here

that u don't have to think that much abt it

to try 2 figure the right and the wrong

bcz there're sm cases

where there's no right

all are wrong

and whatever u do

whatever u say

u'll never b right

u'll always b wrong

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"Do you want to know the truth about the truth?
Its hurts, so we lie."

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The question here

is why?

what's the point of such questions to be asked?

if there's no right answer?

what's the aim of it!

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"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way.
Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real.
What's that saying?
Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?
Because it feels so good when I stop"

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The answer is U

isn't it funny?

when u spend time

thinking and thinking..

trying 2 figure out

stay away from No

because u think it's the wrong answer

and pick Yes

because, it's supposed to be the right answer

then u find out Yes is not

neither No

there's no right answer

both r wrong

u shouldn't even try 2 answer..

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"The first man invented the phrase 'happily ever after' should have his ass kicked.. so hard!"

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The title and the quotes from grey's anatomy

That's it.. That simple!

2010-07-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

I never think about the consequences

I don't!

that simple..

That's me, or actually that's

who i became.

That's y i think,

if u got very sick or had a severe pain

-that u can't bear-

u should take alot of medicines/analgesics

till u feel better/the pain stops

No matter the over dose' toxicity

No matter the side effects

No matter what will happen on the long run..

for God sake who cares about that pullshit

when he can't take his breath?!!!

and when u have insomnia..

when u spend all the day and all the night on ur bed

without any sleep..

even after taking everyones' advice

starting from drinking cup of milk,

ending with sleeping on ur back

staring on the ceiling!

There i think u should take some hypnotic.

ignoring all the good people says..

that u will not have any normal sleep latter

because what's the hell the point of

thinkin' about the future normal sleepin'

while u can't -normally- close ur eyes

for just now?!

and because the hypnotics are always in the table,

-i really dunno y-

it's okay with the anti-histaminic drugs for this purpose

They are cheep and available

and doesn't affect the CNS

only the kidney and the liver

which seems not significant that much

that's y they were kept away from the table!

and so when u want to die

u shouldn't think about the consequences..

u shouldn't have to think about anyone else..

Not about ur family..

Not about ur friends..

Not about Him...

That's it..

we should n't think about the consequences..

because the worst, biggest, most significant One,

will be fine, tiny, and insignificant at all

if it's compared with what u r feeling there..

That simple!

Pick me, Choose me, Love me.

2010-01-05T18:09:00.000-08:00

I love u
I do
u r the most thing i've ever wanted
but i don't show this too much..
because, all my life
the things i've showed that i wanted the most, have gone

and i can't lose u..

I love you

So plz, stay wiz me
No matter what i say
No matter what i do
No matter what happens
just stay here..

in a really, really big......

because when u r here,
all my fears fade away
-Me the one with the huge fears-
when u r here,
i don't feel incomplete
-not any more-

pretend to like your taste in music,

when u say my name,
I feel i own the whole world
and when u don't
I feel i have Nothing at all...

let you eat the last piece of cheesecake,

I know i'm not a good lover..
I know i'm not anyone's dream girl..
I wish i can be more better 4 u..
I'm trying..
though i'm not sure about the results
I still trying..

hold a radio over my head outside your window,

I'm just this silly girl
whom empress u every time by askin' u to sing 2 her
whom is talkin' seriously when she tells u that
she wan't u to propose to her on one knee like the old ages
-which she believe she belongs to-
whom is not kidding when she ask u
2 bring her a monkey and let her keep it at home..

unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you

I know i'm so inperfect
I know i do alot of mistakes
but can u plz let Me
-The really silly girl, with the big fears, and the many many mistakes-
love u..??

So pick me. Choose me. Love me.

The italic lines from Grey's anatomy

un-related thoughts (2)

2010-01-02T11:46:00.000-08:00

It was a wednesday..
it has always been..
anyhow, I don't like wednesdays that much..

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How will it b?
Is there anyone/any place can tell us?
because if there is any,
I'll be there..
standing on the 1st line
just to know..
How will it be?

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She bought it 4 Him..
She thought He will like it alot..
She was in her way 2 Him,
when She met one of her old frnds..
she found her-self giving him the gift
His gift..
Her frnd was really feeling happy..
when she was going away,
with an empty feeling inside..

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Is that what u could tell me there?
that u can't remember anything about me?
I wounder that u still remember my name!
-as it was the only thing u haven't asked about-

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Goodbye, is what i always thought about
and what is not part of ur thinking

Goodbye, is my biggest fear,
and ur non-significant thing

Goodbye, is what i've been w8in' 4
as i've always been left behind
and what u never expected
as u've always been the one who put the end line

Goodbye...

20/12/2009

Miracle...

2009-12-24T08:52:00.000-08:00

Miracle, is what I was w8in' 4 there
as u've told me that u r not comin'
I couldn't stop my-self frm thinking
how will it be i be if U came,
though I know ur convincing obvious reasons
-which prevent U from coming-

Miracle is what prevented me
from accepting the taxis invitation,
tellin' them that I'm waitin' 4 sm1..
It's what made me searching
4 Ur face @ everyone else' faces..

Miracle is what made me standing there 4 a while
w8in' 4 Ur coming
wishing that U've only been late..

Miracle is when U show up
interrupting one of these previous scenes,
opposing all the convincing obvious reasons
-which supposed to prevent u from coming-
carry my luggage, and pick me home..

Miracle is something which never happens in reality

because we are at the No miracles' time.

So, I hang my things by my own self..
stop the 1st taxi passes..
and "Move On".

from an old papers...

2009-11-27T19:19:00.000-08:00

Today
I talked about u..
easily, shortly, with no complications

I answered all the questions with no lie
(maybe i've escaped some details, but i told every thing)

Today
I talked about u..
easily, shortly, with no complications

as it doesn't -really- matter

Not anymore..

can't it be?

2009-06-04T17:55:00.000-07:00

u r the one who always talk
the one who always complain
who always tell me about those stuff annoying u
who always say that u have no friends -though I'm here-
and that u r alone
who always off the mood

and when i do...

u don't listen when i do!
so, why should i talk?

and if i didn't
if i didn't tell u that i was feelin' bad
-though i know i did-
can't u just feel it?
can't u know that I'm feelin' bad without i tell u?
just from my voice?
can't u know?
-as i always do-
just for changing sake!

can't it once be about me,
that I'm the one who feelin' bad?

always, when i call u -because i don't feel good-
first i ask u about ur-self
u tell me that u r not OK
so..
i don't tell u how i am!

and today..
today, i was feelin' bad
i thought it was obviously
but as u haven't noticed i told u
but u didn't listen
u always don't listen to me when i'm talkin'

I know one day i was ur clz frnd
and I know this person has been gone
and sure u r missing me/him
but i can't do any better
that's all i can do
that's all what i really do have!

I'm sorry i've disappointed u today
i haven't been so much caring
i haven't been your close understandable friend
but i've been NOT for along time
-in case u haven't noticed-
and sure i am not now

sorry again..
i know i made u feel worse
but i was already feelin' bad..

can't it once be about me?
just 4 CHANGING sake!

The dreaming thing.

2009-05-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

The good part of being wake up, that u r going 2 b sleep again.
and the bad part of sleepin' that u r gonna 2 have some dreams.
The worst thing about dreaming.. when u r at the middle of dream
-whatever it's really sweet one or a nightmare-

and u know it's a dream,
it's not for real..
U wanna get out of it.

u know u r sleepin'
and that's just a (good/bad) dream
U really wanna escape away from..

But u can't!
U can't wake up..

The amazin' part of having such a dream,
(which u can't get away from)
-whatever good/bad-
that when u finally wake up,

U find your-self can't remember anything!

like if it wasn't there the last seconds..

U only have the impression about it
either happiness or misery,
-in case it's good/bad dream respectively-
but -still- can't remember
anything at all!

It's like having some hollow part at ur mind
like, if there were something a minute ago,
and someone has removed it
leaving an empty space at your head.

Only traces all what u got,
traces which -may be- have been forgotten
to be removed with the whole thing.

U have only the lay out of the dream,
but never remember what it was about
or whom were there?

why u have this impression
-whatever it's good or bad-
and who has caused it!

You never know..

That's why i do hate the dreaming thing at all.

I wish i never have dreams.

Because what's the value of having something,
-whatever good or bad-
when you'll never remember
anything about -even- having it!

May be...

2009-05-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

Alex: Does it hurt ?
Izzie: Yeah.
Alex: Where does it hurt?
Izzie: Everywhere.
Alex: Maybe it hurts for a reason.

from season 3 Episode "sometimes fantacy"

I dunno..

2009-05-15T21:26:00.001-07:00

I'm ...

I don't know how it happened,

that I don't have anyone, but...

I don't have anyone.

Izzie from grey's anatomy season 5 episode 3 "Here Comes the Flood"

Is she?

2009-05-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

She's smiling. Is she happy?

She looks happy. So, what does it matter?

(Betty Warren from Mona Lisa Smile movie)

a MSG has ben received.

2009-03-07T00:30:00.000-08:00

a MSG has been received.
The sender is your friend,
-one of whom u used 2 call a close one-

asks about u..
says that she misses u..
tells u to say "Hi" to your other friends
-the ones whom used 2 be your other closed friends-

when u read the MSG u feel like crying..

Not because u really miss her,
or because u remember the old days,

when u used to see each other every day..

and u weren't in need of sending MSGs there
-although they're a good reasons to do-

but u do -feel like crying-
cause she thinks that,
because u r at the same university
with your other friends
-your both closed ones-
you see them a lot ,
and can tell them that she says "Hi"

u remember when u did the same thing..
when u asked one of your friends
- one of whom used to be a close one-
to say "Hi" for your other friends
-your both closed ones-
as u thought they see each other a lot

because they are at the same faculty!

Then u realize that..

when u r alone,
u think all the other ones are together.

Today..

2009-02-10T19:48:00.000-08:00

Today,
when She was eating alone at their usual
-and not favorite-
restaurant

She's missed him..

She couldn't complete her fried potatos
and found no real desire in eating the pepsi's ice

Today, when She was eating alone
at their usual -and not favorite- restaurant..

She made sure that,

She loves  Him.

The un-related thoughts..

2009-01-04T00:21:00.000-08:00

- He told her that the half-blindness is more better than the full-one
- She told him that she prefers the full-blindness than being a friend of someone whom the both know she's in love with

-----------------------

- They say, the more u live, the more u see
and i say, the more u live and travel alone twice a weak the much more u see

-----------------------

- She asked him about that girl whom left him for another one else..
if he still feels any hatred towards her
- He answered her with his quiet -usual- smile with No.
she only thought how rare is her friendto be exist nowdays

-----------------------

- He told her before about two of his colleagues,
whom loved each other for five years..
and after their engagement,
He found out he stopped loving her..
but he couldn't tell her in order to not hurt her feelings
He kept it up hoping it'd change after marriage,
but it'd not..
and he didn't tell her to not hurt her feelings..
he couldn't love her again, and he couldn't stay faithful neither
so he cheated on her
and once more he couldn't tell her to not hurt her..
- The most weird part of the story 4 her,
the Girl,
she always believed, He is the love of her life.

-----------------------

- Everyone she has known in her life has told her that sentence
"I don't deserve u"
she always wondered about that!
is really the one whom does, hadn't exist yet?!
or she's the responsible of making them feel like that..
though she hate the second choice, she found her-self thinking seriously about it..
as the first one is much further to be real!

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- He told her that he can't do it any more
he can't live with her like that
"takes and never gives"
-she asked him if she has complained?
- He answers with No, but it doesn't mean he have to wait till she does!
- She just asked him to not regret after couple of years
-as they always do!-

-----------------------

- He asked her to not hate him..
she really doesn't know why he did!
he has asked the same thing before and she has promised him to not do.
she has never hated him and she will never do..
so, why he now repeating him-self again?!
to make her confirm an old information!
if that's is true, so he really deserves her hatred!
though they both know she won't do at all..

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- They say that " All the alive people r going to be meet again .. one day"
-she keep praying for God to prolong their lives,
till that day comes and they meet.. again

2008-12-26T13:26:00.000-08:00

The greatest thing in traveling alone

that you will enjoy watching the road without any interruption from the one who sits beside you

and the awful thing at it all, that at the end of the trip you will have to carry your bag by your own-self

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I hate the ORGANIC CHEMISTRY I just wish i pass it this year
coz i don't wanna it in my life anymore

-------------------------

why should we start anything while we know they all going to end?!

-------------------------

I'm dreaming of the second semester from now..

I just hope this dream completes and doesn't convert to an Nightmare
-as everything else-

at opposite..

2008-12-08T13:42:00.000-08:00

I hate when u act like this!

I hate when u make me think,
It'd be more better if i didn't tell u about it all!

I hate when u just leave coz u have nothing 2 say
-though i'm still talking- and actually i keep talking.. then after while i find out, i was just talking 2 my-self 4 minutes ago!

I hate ur reaction, coz i think i have been put in similar situation
and i didn't have a similar reaction of urs or even a nearly one!

I hate it coz i think it's bcz u don't trust me enough -like i do-
and that's why we have different reactions here!

I hate when u make me feel this worse
while u r the one whom supposed to make me feel better
when it all goes wrong around!

I hate when i feel we r at an opposite sides when we r supposed to be at the same one!

"Mmmm"

2008-11-27T15:06:00.000-08:00

As they didn't talk 4 two weaks,

He begane 2 miss her..

Though she doesn't say much during their call

He talks and talks and talks..

and she always listens and replies with few words,

most of them r "Mmmm.s"

Though it was annoying him that she doesn't say much,

but it was enough 4 him..

just 2 hear her voice

and as they didn't talk for two weaks,

he begane to miss her..

voice

He called her many times,

but she didn't answer..

and when she calld him back,

he could't answer

they kept like that for two days..

and it's at the weekend's night when he called her again

there, she answered after some rings with a sleepy voice..

he knows when she's sleeping, she's not sharp minded

and mostly she can't differentiate who's talkin' to her!

He talked 2 her alittle (as she's a sleep),

and she only replies with "Mmmm"

(as her usual when she is a wake)

He was almost ending the call when he said

I love U

instead of saying

see U

He knows that next morning when she wakes up,

she won't remember any thing about that call..

except maybe that someone has called her when she was sleeping

or may she'll believe it was just a dream!

He told her that he loves her and she (as her usual) replies only with "Mmmm"

and (as his usual),

it was Enough for him.

The end

Although

2008-10-02T00:00:00.000-07:00

Although She still living with her parents..

Has sisters and brothers..

More than one anteem,

and bunch of whom She can call good friends..

Although it's supposed She's found her soulmate..

Although all of that..

When She cries,
She always cries alone..

28/5/08

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2008-09-11T14:25:00.000-07:00

Bad mood

----------

every one I need to talk 2 right now

seems 2 not be here

----------

Nothin' 2 say

----------

Sometimes I just think

if I wasn't me,

how'd it be there?

I find no answer

except,

sure it'd be more better

----------

Thanks

----------

talking 2 an old frnd is like
trying 2 remember the details about
someone u havn't seen 4 a long time
(don't mean the frnd here I'm talkin' about Me)

----------

I was feel bad enough

I wasn't in need 2 feel that worse

----------

waitin' 4 somethin' I dunno

----------

Ya rab

2008-08-31T16:46:00.000-07:00

HaPpY rAmAdAn

2008-08-25T20:08:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,

I wish if i can let every thing Here

and just be There

Here is it :)

2008-08-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

It's 4:00 am

she sits trying 2 write something about him especially about him,

as she promised 2 do

why it's so hard 2 find somethin' 2 say!

though she has written before about many people
She has written about almost everybody at her life

why when it comes about him

she just quotes somethin' from someone else

why she feels as an idiot!

- May be bcz I always heared that,

ppl write about persons they wanna to bury

and I don't wanna to bury him

I wanna him still at my life

- No, that's not reason

u have wrote about many people and didn't mean there to bury them

- May be bcz he's Mine

I don't wanna other ppl 2 c him

I wanna it still that mystery

Everyone asks, but no one gets an answer

- Mmmm

u r somewhat close

- Maybe bcz every time I hold my pen to write somethin' about him

I c him smiling at me

that smile which takes my breathes away
so that I can't write anything

- Mmmmm

That seems Nice :)

and here it has been so long time since she sits to write those words

something 4 him, especially 4 him

as he asked

and as she promised to do
and after that long time

she found she didn't write a BIG DEAL

though, she tried

and she know it'd be enough 4 him when he reads it

coz he knows what she has inside 4 him

and only 4 him

he knows

and that was enough 4 her

I hate when....

2008-08-07T15:01:00.000-07:00

Back 2 Home :)

and here an old post

I can't remember the definit date 4 it

and though I don't feel that all hatred anymore

it still works

---------------------

I hate when U do that

I hate it more than U can ever imagin!
when U just give me orders - bcz of ur position- ,
and I have Nothing 2 do except 2 obey

- bcz of my position - !

---------------------

I hate when U lie 2 ME

U just do

and I do know that U do

Maybe that's why I stopped askin' U about anything

just to keep U away from doin' that!

---------------------

I hate when U act like this!

especially that I don't do anything annoying U

I hate when I think that,

it would be more better if U weren't here!

---------------------

I hate that I don't know anything about U

I don't even try 2 know..

Never thought it'll be like this

we r completely strangers now

I don't know U and definitely U don't know ME

---------------------
I hate when I feel like crying and

- as some self-punishment -

I dont cry.

---------------------

I hate when I think that after publishing this post

some people will come 2 ask ME

"who did u mean there??!"

so plz don't!

:)

2008-07-22T03:23:00.000-07:00

To be right back :)

2008-07-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

"- Look, he came back, didn't he?

Begging, crawling on his knees, vomiting...

-I don't care!

I'm sorry, I'm not that easy..

I don't forgive

and I definitely do not forget"

from alfie movie

2008-07-12T14:00:00.000-07:00

I know that it's the beautiest thing at it all

and so that, i'll simply ruin it 4 u

2008-06-27T13:03:00.001-07:00

need to write something,

what is it, or 4 whom it will be?

I dunno

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as i backed 2 home i had to tidy my things,

i had to found many useless things (sure once they have a use, but now they don't)

and as every time i do this thing

i can't throw anything away!

why i dunno know..

i hate the idea of throwing the thing away cause they became useless

cause u don't need it any more u simply throw it away!

with no guilt feeling..

things with memories

not matter good or bad one..

i can't throw anything away

Oh God if only i can do it!

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People whom have a good memory don't have a happy life in order

somethings -unwanted things actually- always remain

which they don't want!

as i'm one of those people

sometimes i wish i don't have it

be able to 4get any thing quickly as the other people do

dates, birthdays, Numbers, voices, words..

ur head full of useless things

birthdays u don't say "Happy Birthday" on the!

dates u don't celebrate of!

numbers u don't call!

so, why u have 2 remember them all?!

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sometimes i think.

which better?

to go to the same faculty with ur 7 childhood' friends

and finish the first year with big hatred 4 them

or to go to a different faculty of thems

and finish ur 1st year with the same feeling u always had 2 them?

i think the second is better :)

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i wish i can change..

2 better or to worse

doesn't matter..

any thing else except this offside area

Finally @ HOME

2008-06-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

it's really hurts me..

2008-06-05T19:04:00.000-07:00

It has been so hard 4 me when it's about death cases..

finding no words 2 say, is the most thing annoying me..

(as i am a real talkative one! )

so, why at this cases i can't say a word!

Instead of making the other one holds and be stronger,

I became weak..

Instead of asking them to not cry,

I got weeping..

I can't deal with goodbye when it's only a temporary farewell..

so, i can't even imagine what if it is a permanent one!

and so, my only wish became..

just to be the 1st one who go there of all the people i do love..

cause simply,

I can't -till now- acclimate with the fact of "Farewell" ..

the idea of losing someone 4ever!

Not only u won't see them, or u won't have them at ur life..

nope!

They, won't be even exist in this world anymore..

Not wiz u, not wiz anyone else..

The idea of staying when the others are leaving,

is really hurts me!

so hard to get, so hard 2 believe, and so hard 2 live with..

and here we are..

2008-05-30T18:59:00.000-07:00

Pharmacy's Girl

Can it be ?!!

2008-05-21T19:25:00.000-07:00

Do we have 2 live every moment of our lifes?!

can't we just pass some whiles away!

i know it seems so strange so i'll give u an example..

what if u have today some thing (event, situation, whatever) something u really want to not attend!

(not talk here about not having it, only not attending)

let's say it's from 5 pm to 7 pm

can't u at 4.599 pm pass by some way?

(even by just closing ur eyes!)

and the next time u open ur eyes it be 7.01 pm!

u just escaped this time (5:7 pm)

and u will got the same result ( the event/situation will happened only u won't attend the happening of it)

can't we just wen we don't wanna 2 attend 2morrow..

sleep at ! night, to wake up at the day after 2morrow??!

does it possible??!

can it ever happen??!

cause i really NEED it..

:)

2008-05-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

My last drawing on teh last lecture of dr. ahmed's lectures (organic dr) lol

it wasn't mine..

2008-05-09T13:09:00.000-07:00

me, how r u?

a frnd, still alive..

me, "still alive" nice, it reminds me wiz someone :)

a frnd, who?

me, someone whome i don't talk to anymore :)

a frnd, and why do u lose anyone 4 any reason??

me, it wasn't my choice there..

a frnd, may be..

I miss u..

2008-04-26T15:25:00.000-07:00

Today at the dinner

i found no one to peel the shrimp 4 me

Today at the dinner, i missed u mum

i really do now..

2008-04-23T18:23:00.000-07:00

U were always a special frnd 4 me,

and u'll always be..

I really miss our old days, i won't 4get them never,

it seems there's nothing can last 4ever..

I will..

2008-04-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

saying goodbye...

2008-03-07T19:32:00.000-08:00

Saying good bye 2 someone u really love,

as u don't care..

while u r wearing ur sun glasses in order to not show ur real feelings..

as u didn't spend all the last day crying,

coz they're going to leave the next morning..

just to say this silly word and go away,

knowing that,

the next time u'll get back to home,

u'll not find them there..

is the most thing i hate ever!

18/2/2008

2008-02-20T06:08:00.000-08:00

when i read ur words, i felt like crying

actually i cryed when i got back to home

i duno why i did such act!

maybe it's bcz u feel so bad..

maybe it's bcz i don't know what's goin' on..

maybe it's bcz i can do nothing 4 u..

maybe bcz it's the first time i saw u in such mood and i don't have the right to do anything 4 u

sure u had a similar mood before, but i didn't know there

and that's what hurt

the different between the one who knows and the one who doesn't

that, the one whom does will suffer 4 ever

it's so hard when u so the one whom used to be ur anteem sufferning and u have nothing to do!

u can't even say "hey, r u ok?"

simply coz u r not sure that if u did,

u would get some answer!

Happy Birthday..

2008-01-26T01:45:00.000-08:00

I duno why most of my best frnds choosed jan. to be born at it..

or, why i choosed most of my best frnds whom born at jan..

whatever :)

I couldn't say Happy Birthday 2 two of them..

One, bcz he was out the country and i didn't got his No. there

so i couldn't say it on time!

and the other One,

I got his No. but simply, i can't say it :)

so bad feeling, when ur mobile rings alarming u that it's *****'s Birthday

and u can't say Happy Birthday to them!

I'm sorry 4 that..

2008-01-12T12:53:00.000-08:00

Though i'm a good listener

I always had Nothing to say!

The same!!

2007-12-22T12:29:00.000-08:00

I swear taht i would answer the same answer taht u have answered!!

I swear that i would take the same quote that u've taken!!

so weird

it always was the same..

and it seems it always will!!

2007-12-14T09:30:00.000-08:00

Loving u is like

BREATHING

How can I stop!!

2007-11-29T11:55:00.000-08:00

NB: this post have been written 2 weeks ago

on friday 16/11/07

it's about event happened 2 weeks ago

not this week not the last one :)

enjoy it

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I always said that "sorry" means, Nothing!

it won't make any difference with a hurted one!

though, i always believed in saying it,

even if it won't make any difference

but the other one (the hurted one)

deserve to hear it

I'm sorry..

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yesterday i saw all the national team players

yesterday i saw them all

barakaat, hosam 3'aly, mahmoud fat7allah, osama hosny. met'eb, abou treeka and alhadary

such event would mean alot 4 me if it was 2 years ago

but yesterday

it meant nothing!

only my great pleasure that (aya) my dear frnd

met met'eb finally :)

It seems i really have been changed!

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it's so hard wen people deal u as u own all the keys

as u r a super person!

who can solve anything!!

Maybe once u were like that

but now u r not

so it became so hard even to listen to them

u wish only if they let u alone and go away..

Hey, i'm not that old person

I'm not ur gaurd angel anymore!

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college completely differ than school :(

i wish i had only one school day back..

only one..

agood one

with the pure feeling

with the real laughs

with the honest frnds

i got happy wen i visit my frnds college (handasa) and see them all

or wen we go to college by the same, bus/microbus/taxi

it remind me with our old days

our school days

the days i miss them alot

and the frnds i love them alot

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i always refused the idea of being alone

i couldn't ever imagine how someone can enjoy his time wen he is alone!

Howcome!

and though these ideas of mine

it seems it's my fate to be alone :)

i wake up at the morning alone, go to college alone,

back from college alone

get my launch alone, sleep after that alone, wake up alone,

study alone, eat any thing alone..

go to sleep alone, to wake up alone again..

I travel to cairo alone

I come back to psd alone :)

even wen i write this again

i write it alone :)

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a frnd asked me, if i do believe in reasons

that every thing happening 4 us has a reason

and if it's there

why we couldn't know it?

I couldn't answer :)

yea i know that anything happening 4 us happen with reason

even if we can't know it right now

but sure it's exist

though all these wise words,

I couldn't know why till now

an i always ask my-self this question

why?!

What Type of Weather Are You?

2007-11-22T11:54:00.000-08:00

it must be rain :)

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

2007-11-21T14:16:00.000-08:00

I wrote a new post at my dear notebook

during my travel trip last friday

and i 4got it at cairo

sorry 4 not being here 4 along time

the next week (next tuesday i mean)

i'll bring it isA and i'll write it here :)

sorry again

and thanks 4 all the people whom still come to here (F)

Leaving!

2007-09-22T15:25:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving the next hours..

it's so hard to leave!

whatever the place u r leaving,

and whatever the place u r going to..

whoever the people u r leaving,

and whoever the people u r going to live with..

I always hated saying goodbye

I hate it still!

though there are all the people whom i love

and i'll live with my four anteems

i still feel bad :(

Maybe it's bcz i hate surprises

i hate to be unkwon for waht is waiting 4 me..

Maybe i'm curious!

I just wanted to say that i'l Miss my life her in port said

and i'll miss the blogspot

i'll miss ur works

and i'll read ur comments isA at the weekend

wish 4 me good luck

and pray hardly 4 me there...

2007-09-12T14:12:00.000-07:00

Ramadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan Kareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem

btw i got saidala lol

el7amdolellah..